Life makes you think about whatever you ever thought about, twice.

Life makes you think twice about whatever you ever thought about.

Thursday Ladies Night @ Lounge 18 ON THE BUND!

we got a free dinner and countless free cosmopolitans, apple/lychee martini, etc

and i got a free bottle of champaigne and lap dance =D

they had a drawing contest and i put in my boss's name card and i got it -__-

then my boss called me right after at 10:30. FAIL.

GREAT NIGHT OUT!!! I love these girls <3 

OCTOBER 2009

I gotta start writing my own blogs ~ otherwise this will be a precious journey wasted-_-

Thoughts going through my mind-

GOTTA think before I speak now. 

Quote V: I mean who doesn't want to be on A BOAT? I knew it was going to be awesome, but for some reason pretty much everyone from our program was unwilling to go. Anyways, only 4 of us from our program went, but the boat party was beyond sold out and it was packed to capacity by the time we started moving. We basically started at the Bund, my favorite place ever, and went up and down the river while thoroughly enjoying an open bar on 4 levels and a rooftop dance party.

I write for myself, this time.

After setting up everything (getting all the materials I  think I need, writing utensils, and water, chair right by my bed) I RE-realized that setting up always takes more time than my actual study time -_-" 

Obama's surprising win -

IN DEFENSE for the "Premature" decision criticism made by the Norwegian Nobel Prize Committee, members of the Nobel Committee award stated that it could be seen as an early vote of confidence intended to build global support for the policies of his young administration

"why do you always self-depreciate, Cathryn?" 

what has gotten in my head, I wonder to myself. Words of confidence, ironically, comes from other minds. 

Live your life, simple as that.

You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story.

What do I have as an advantage over the local Chinese students?

Americans always taking initiative and thinking what we can do, while I think the more standard Chinese approach is to take orders.” He says the difference is rooted in the educational system. “In Chinese schools students are encouraged to be quiet and less outspoken; it fosters a culture of listening more than initiating.”

Tale of Two Cities

The Magical City

Hong Kong is beautiful. I can't wait to spend Christmas there this year. Compare to Shanghai, HK is in every respect closer to western civilization. I have yet to discover where I like better: the classy lifestyle on top of Victoria Harbor or wandering the nights away in the city of Unknown till dawn.

生活是什么？是在忙忙碌碌中寻找一丝安静？还是孜孜不倦的追求理想与希望？是在控制欲望的无休止的理性和感性的战斗中挣扎？还是浑然淡定的过着一分一秒？

或许上帝在造就形形色色的人的时候就想好了赋予人类各种各样的性格。于是有的人可以心无旁骛的生活在自己的世界中并享受它，而有的人则难以自拔的看着别人的世界而希冀也可以成为其中的一个元素或者至少可以从中分享一点快乐。或许人类的渺小与无助恰恰就在于对于内心以及投射及外的行为的控制与约束程度不足。境界高一些的可以跳出自身来分析自己的行为，分析自己的想法。但是真正能有多少人可以随心所欲的跟随自己对于应该如何过自己的生活的理性分析而行？可能归根结底，只是懒惰，贪婪与欲望在拖着我们陷入现实的泥浆，让我们离理性与正确的行为与生活方式渐行渐远。

 

人凡如我应该都是复杂的矛盾体。内心中既有由性别角色所带来的欲望与追求和一般意义上对于新的充满乐趣的事物的体验与猎奇心理，也有一股强大驱动力在理性光芒下与之抗争。虽然现在光芒或许还不够强烈，但是我会去寻找更多更强的发光源，取得最终的胜利。或许需要的只是更多的role model的激励罢了。-K

逃避寂寞　期待吃喝玩樂
談得多戀愛更覺　不領會何謂快樂
誰是玩伴　誰是愛的幻覺
誰與我　能永遠　留在夢中天國

The Future of Twitter -- Printout -- TIME

The Future of Twitter -- Printout -- TIME

" I’ve internalized the realization that beauty is truly in the eyes of the beholder and that the actual value of an item is different than the stirring it creates in the heart. Yes, there are objects that I hold dear, and while no one will participate in bidding wars for these items, they mean more than the world to me."

his words always beats me.

He has a coldness in him, a sort of emotionlessness, you get the feeling with him= he really doesn'r care about much of anything. 

WORST personality EVER. why am i obsessed.

i feel like i dont know where i wanna go and what i want at this moment

.:Cath:. says: (3:04:39 AM)

i find myself liking ppl who are as contradictory as me

.:Cath:. says: (3:05:57 AM)

ipart of me wanna spend half a year in France and just embrace my addiction for western carefree-ness, part of me wanna abandon it all and go for hardcore-financial/consulting career

.:Cath:. says: (3:06:14 AM)

is there really a way to have it all, balance everything out?

2. Do something different to recover creativity
23. Get inspiration from the work of other photographers
24. Criticize honestly but respectfully
25. Get feedback from your lady

haha photography lessons.

Let's try to make this right :)

There are a substantial amount of krazy talented people at ucla. it's kinda scary... not to say I had no idea before~Just didn't know how talent people our age could be! 

I decided to start blogging, twittering, tumbir-ing tonight. why the sudden inspiration? I have to confess it has to do with my obsession - something my roommate has pointed it out to me while overhearing me comparing myself with EVERY human being on earth- I have this insatiable desire to try everything and right now I want to STICK with something that I will be proud of because I tried, and it works. I want to find something that makes me proud. Of course, the key is that "I" have to put in the efforts first to make myself proud.

. Friends who say yes (life is so much more fun when you are surrounded by people who are down to just do whatever).

to be cont'd..

I really feel the same way "I dislike and like this impulsive side of me; at times I feel like it is something that makes me who I am. You know, the part of me that makes people go, “What the fck? Is that kid on drugs?” I don’t particularly mind being called odd, weird, or my favorite, abnormal. Simultaneously, I can’t help but confuse everyone, especially myself. "

Something that I wish I had written:

"The effing weather has been effing spectacular lately. Sunny blue skies, check. Green grass, minimal allergies, check. Cool breeze, check. How fortunate we are to live in such a amicable place where I can spend most of my days just idling in the grass or wandering around late at night, jacketless but warmed by the night air. It’s wonderful, really.

Life is not as rewarding and definitely not as amusing without having something or someone to be animated about."